Heyyo! Guess whos back, back again. Is the man, on the Double! hahkz, extra spicy and staying crazy as always. Man! i didnt go to skuul again! for the past few days, i had been most busy with my life at werk dat i forgot i got a life at skuul too.. holy mother of Tigrex! ytd i did my test, didnt expect it to be so easy though. hahakz, well, after all dat, i did it in only half an hour. so chilling in class. Hui ming says he wanted to quit werk at sentosa. man!! den il be left alone ther again.. no matter, ive owaes been a solo since i was young, so i didnt care much if i was left alone.

Now, i duno wat will happen, but im feeling a wave of depression lately. Care to tell me? hahakz. i try to listen to ppl. but all i got is gossips of me and other ppl. The recent one was from my workplace abt me and dis gerl. sheesh.. i told one person dat i like her and now it turns out to be dat they told the gerl dat SHe likes ME! omgosh! den it became worse, she didnt reply or sms me back. damn, i was frustrated. i was frustated abt the rumours, and i demanded to noe the truth. so i pull my colleagues one by one to noe the truth. so i ended up in a knot, a dead end.

Man, dis ppl really wants to see Hell's Fury unleashed in Sentosa, dont they? well, all i gotta do is relax and think calmly for me to get out of this half dugged graveyard dat was left on my land of virtue. hahakz. So it did, dat gerl replied my sms. wow! waiting really pays the price doesnt it? lols so we got over dat stupid rumour and i was whole lot better today. but im still tied in a knot..

Hey, anithing contact me by my mobile yeah? 81198967. but pls, i dun entertain gays or lesbians and definitely ppl who less cares abt themself den my pre-paid balance. lol

aite, im off, ppl. wanna accompany that specific to the clinic. I think she miss me dats y she wanted me to accompany her, lols. aite2 its a joke, dat one.

~peacE! no WaR! maKe LovE!~

Labels: turn of events

always remembered; 10:48 AM (:

Today, at 0605am of 14th Feb 2008, i lost my beloved pet & friend.. He was named Coco. Well, Valentines Day isnt the same animore widout him. For the pass few years he's been living with us, and i swear to you, everything was more fun with Coco around, playing all around the house, biting my leg when I come home everday as a sign of greeting me home.. Sigh.. I know that everything that has a soul will one day be gone. But he is so young, only 3 years of age and a hyperactive cat at one too, and now that he had passed on before me, i felt suddenly day i lost another family member.. just like the ones before..

All i was sure abt , he was suffering, for 3 days straight. He came home ok, but then puking out white foams, it was all over the dining carpet. 1st day he was coughing white foam out of his mouth, I thought it was food poisoning. When i tried to touch his sensitive spot on his stomach, he bite me with such anger dat i didnt dare to lay a finger on him again afterwards. So the only way for it to be sustain and solved was letting him rest and puke it out. And the funny thing about Coco was dat, he kept dragging himself into the toilet and lay asleep there, even though he could not move properly, he had practically lost his will to walk. My mom explain dat maybe his body is hot and he wanted to cool it down, but i disagree. I know something must be wrong but I dunno wat ta do abt it. So all i can do is wait.

Then the day came when he died. It was awful, i couldnt bear to see. But he died in a peaceful manner. He died in my room of all places.. I was quite happy though, since he was suffering so much from all this while, i think its best if he passed on and be in heaven.haiz..

I realised something after dat, Coco was my bestest and close friend of all.. Whenever I was unhappy, hed try to perk me up by playing with me and all. He would hug the leg of the chair when he is kinda lost at something. And would play with the plastic bags dat i put in a bag, dat owaes give a tantrum to my mum, and il laugh when mi mum scolded him, and he will be up front sitting and listening to my mum's long lecture. All those times was great. But we gotta move on, cuz all dat matters now is the present.

Im glad dat I rescued him from the carpark carrying him in mi shirt cuz he all cold.

Il miss u Coco, jus like all the others dat has passed on before you. Love you like my own brother. Il see u in heaven dear friend..

~Sadness will be triumph by happy moments & laughter, dont stray away from that light, find it and embrace it and you will see the good side of life~

Labels: Fall of my family

always remembered; 7:01 AM (:

haha! wassaP! guyZ!! wth??!! i neber been abLe to bLog n dis is all i get as sumtinG to rejoicE?? LoL, aniwaes, life is oK. im kinda being sickled ouT. i feeL easily distraughted by the fact daT mi friends are not thinking the way theY shouLd be like the GooD oLd daYz... haiZ.. i feel like decimating a 1000 Tigrex to clear my head.. aNd ppl'S critism just laCeraTed my hearT... jeeZ.. they go on saying as though they are perfect in EVERY way. i duNNo wat i can do(in a nice way) to help them SHUT THE **** UP. -_-.

kk, all those aside.. i noe its not rite, and i know it was never RIGHT. but i broke up with my gf. 4 days ago.. i broke up with her.. i left a deep wound on her.. i cant see her animore.. i dun wanna.. n i dunno im acting like this.. maybe im just another jackass who would like to have a gerlfriend just so he would have him treat her as his equal and to show off to his friends.. haiz.. but i do love her. i do love her.. which is why i cant have her when i did. cuz im facing problems dat concerns my future, my beloved ones, ones whom have passed away and i never see them to the end.. i was so far away in my own world and didnt look around me to figure out wth is going on... i miss those times i had with Z. i cant complain. she said its impossible between the both of us. it shredded my heart in pieces far beyond dire pain.. i felt like i was to be given a chance.

so i told her i would wait for her, make her smile and laugh no matter what it takes.. but unfortunately, she didnt reply. and i was beginning to wonder If she WOULD ever reply me back. FucK.. me and my stupid mouth.. i gt a feeling she wun reply me back. hahkz. but the fact still remains dat i cant COMPLETELY forget abt her... WHY??!!

(heavy breathing..)

*huff* *huff* weLL, at least mY NEW PSP SLIM is warding off the pain n suffering i had. hahahahaha. haiz..i tink mi recent entries only reflects abt how im feeling rite now and then..
my reasons are simple.. NOT ENOUGH SLEEP AND WATCH TOO MUCH ANIME!!

aite guys, im off to another land.. u guys should noe of it. hahahkz. peaCE!!

always remembered; 10:26 PM (:

School has begun its torture yet once again. but it seems like ytd dat i began to wake up early for morning classes. It has been rather quiet at werk recently, maybe cause alot of the other older staffs dat i knew had quitted the job due to school and other significant reasons. and a certain someone is thinking abt werking at sentosa with me!! yay! hurhur.. not gonna sae, though that person have nt given an answer yet.. but il be waiting to see if it goes as it should. And theres Aida, she went to interview for a place at Sentosa for a job as one of the Admission Ops, like me! Hey, i didnt get her into these, she just asked if she could try a new job experience, dats all..

So, mi life huh? is not bad and its not reeli good either.. wanna noe y? ive been thinking of becoming single again.. i just dun wanna move forward wit my gf animore.. maybe im being selfish or maybe im getting bored.. but the fact still remains dat im still with her, and i dun wanna break her heart by saying i wanna end our relationship. how do i end widout hurting her?? how? dats the one thing now dat ive been stressing over again and again..

Its not dat i am bored of her, but its the spark. the spark dats makes us inevitable in our relationship just suddenly died off.. why did it happen? i cant explain.. reeli i cant.. i dun wanna hurt her, but ppl sae dat the longer u give her hope, the harder its gonna be on her if i break the iceberg. i think im becoming COLD BLOODED.. if u noe wad i mean.. haiz.. its like i dun care for her animore to see if shes crying all over from all these.. these betrayal.

wat can i do to make it NOT HURTFUL? i jus dun wanna make ppl feel sad and unhappy, but in doing so, im as much of a JACKASS as any other typical guys whom prefer to change gerlfrends as soon as they break up with another..

Made some new friends at Sentosa, yet again.. lolz. funny isnt it? think dat u can relate to dem like they can to you. But its all a matter of understanding ones thinking and answering as professional as ever. There was this white guy asking me if he could use the ticket he purchease for the monorail for the MRT.. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! he thinks dat the SEntosa monorail is somewhat connected to the MRT at harbour front!! omG! muther-****ing morons.. kahahakz!!

well, im off to sleep now. i cant stand the AGONY off the people asking me BONUS questions and iL back to a corner,LAUGHING.. LOL

always remembered; 2:01 AM (:

We have now come to a new year.. SILOSO BEACH PARTY RAWKSZ!!!! WOO HOO!!! went to the 2008 countdown at Siloso. it was all party till 6am. but no, i didnt stay til dat late. i.. "tried" to go home. but Wat the Hell! the nite rider going towards SengkanG broke down at Clarke Quay MRT station. So it was oreadi 3.30 am when i realise it. and my hp batt was flat, couldnt get any form of contact to MOTHER BASE. lol

HeY, iL finish thise story another day yeah? gotta bE ready for werk!


******HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!******
2008

always remembered; 9:54 AM (:

23 December 2007

hey guys! it HAS been like AGES! since i wrote on my bloG. weLL, i can only blame myself cuz werk aint a walk in the park, u see.. it drains my super-enegizer battery everday! Even my legs are getting the 'jeLLies' after work nowadays. So, back to Reality check, i wanna verify sumthing important before abt my last entry. aBt Zakiah, i dun reeli meant wat i sae, the part i sae dat she doesnt make me happy. well, wen she replied me back after awhile now, i felt rather appreciated. hey, shes mi friend ppl!

perhaps im mixing too much with ppl nowadays dat i forgot abt myself sumtimes. Totally. Ya, and i forgot to say dat i am reeli easy to get pissed off nowadays.. and the ppl coming to Sentosa was like.. FUCK. yep, dats all i can sae, life is sad. when will it be the day when u greet someone with a smile and they smile back? NEVER! NOT GONNA HAPPEN. dats for sure. especially the malay ppl. hey im malay myself, but im not a jackass who disturb ppl when they are werking. there was dis female worker of mine and she always complain to me dat she is owaes disturb by dis group of mat2s. and i ask to myself. ' Why were they born in the 1dt place? And what benefit do they get by doing so?' Fuck. the ppl are reeli pissing me off. i am not perfect ppl, but i dun piss ppl off by my actions and stupidity. I do my wurk with integrity and dis is wat we working ppl get?

jus becuz im wurking doesnt mean im not a head-to-toe human dat can anytimg pounce on a jackass who keeps marinating his/her face trying to all so bold and popular among their spasm of a friend. damn. they ARE STUPID, arent they.

But at the end of the day, i got nothing to complain abt. he or she who somes to Sentosa are my BOSS aniwaes. lol. i think u noe wat i mean. hahakz



24-25 Desember 2007


k, werk is kooL, and u shudda seen Sentosa on Christmas Day man! its like Zoukout! but a lil less crowd. But man! ppl were exchanging gifts and complimentary tickets- eh! not tickets! wat i meant was compliments. hahakz. hit me on the head. and ppL were ruxhing to watch the 7.40 pm Songs Of The Sea show(as usual..) I went to watch it ytd, not from the train's platform. hahakz. And it was.. sensational, i sae. it was. i just dun reeli like the opening of the show, where dis local performers were lip-singing along with the speaker. it feLt soo.. CHEAP. But heck!

the shows duration was arnd 25 min. i like the flames shooting from the top of the huts, (it was hot!!) and the laser lightings were kinda spooky. but the fireworks were great, as always. and when to take the Luge. it was a NIGHT RIDE, cool! i wish i werk at retail rather den Admission ops. lolx. their pays are better den ours. and great, im werking 2nd shift tomoro. i think itl be great. though i dun like the idea of waving to ppl.. hahakz. k, im oFF
toodLes

always remembered; 7:40 PM (:

Yo.. piss.. off.. by.. teachers..and her fucking face.. i wanna murder her if possible.. My week had been nothing but fucked up by people whom i had known i will not get along well the very 1st day i come face to face with them. And my job payment is like fuck too. i shoulda stick with F&B. jeez, standing for 7 hrs is just not my thing.. and now, im all huingry and feeling reeli cold, i dun feel like schooling animore.. i hate school, but i love the idea of being at school.. jeez, im reeli sounding depress & stressed..

Y.. i dunno how to answer m own question.. i feel so.. un easy.. so.. unfit.. so.. unhappy, when im suposse to be... is it because im missing Lilo? i dunno.. im all jumbled up in the head.. and y the hell am i thinking of Zakiah at this very moment? Lilo, makes me happy, she doesnt.. hmm.. i think my inner demon is swallowing up my good side.. damn, and in a second, il be thinking of nothing but gerls... shiy.. dats what i hate when im clearly unstable to think anything but tomorow..

Im trying to make sense on why im feeling so.. pessimistic.. and.. uneasy & preoccupied internally.. well, watever.. it owaes happens, but when tomorow comes, il be feeling a hundred timed lighter. :)

im out, im still thinking of gg to school or not tomorow.. jeez.. hate dat teacher.. well, me off! peace people!!

always remembered; 10:51 PM (:

So haha nowadays dat i cant see anithing going wrong in my life. Work is getting interesting nowadays. Chicks, hot and delicious. LOL. im kidding, im kidding. But yeah, today was alot of fun cuz i chill off most of the bloody time! hahakz. and my Beachies(dats wad dey call us at Beach Station) did nearly most of the work(BADSHOW, IS!) and wad do u noe? I was patted at the back for being so ever nice to assist a couple trying to get into the platform for the monorail, by the guy whos card is as wet as water, lols. And being one of the Admission Ops, being polite is one of the MUSt so dat Guests can be happy going IN & OUT of Sentosa. And finally! i knoe what IMBIAH means! its, another term for Bridge! omg. Seems like i was dumbstrucked to NOT know that..



And i m so missing her, so missing mi Lilo.. I want her so.. hehekz.



And my hair just keeps getting cooler. *kwang3*

And soon, when my money is out and into my hands, im gonna haf sum FUN! woohoo! yeah yeah, and looks like I can finally own a PS3 mates! yesh la! but nt this month though, cuz alot of stuff i haf ta settle and take care of. Maybe the next payment of the other, I might get it, and owning prbably a new PSP. sheesh. My old one is kinda sucky cuz the buttons are all so UNsensitive already. and the colours are fading,Plus the switch on button is like WTF!! its not switching on with one click, i haf to keep on clicking it alot of time man! wat a hassle!

kk, gtg now, i jus skipped my Physical Ed class, and im NOt gonna miss the 1pm class, never. hahkz. kk, off i go now! byez! misss tha ppl out there, dudes & ladies! peaCE ya Off!

always remembered; 8:12 PM (: